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Machinae Supremacy
The Great Giana Sisters
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吉田兄弟
Storm
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GitS Standalone Complex
Rise |
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Mr. T
Xenon
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Onoken
Felys
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Move
Freezing Rain
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ああ、女神さま、 |
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Ａｉｒ
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Appleseed |
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Ghost in the Shell Stand Alone Complex |
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Mahoraba ~Heartful Days~ |
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It's 9:30 and I'm awake! Shock! And WoW is down! SHIT! Damn weekly maintenance. Foony helped me set up an accout last night, yaaaaay! So you know what this means - Anyone who can, set up a character on Eredar! I created two characters alst night - a Nightelf Huntress and a Human Paladin. Did some leveling and questing action. Got my Huntress to 7 and Paladin to 5 =) And now it's down but the new patch will be implimented today, woot. I also need to log in as Erik and send my old character's stuff to my new character... but can't! Waaaaaah! Oh well. This'll give my characters a bit of a rest bonus, woot =D Maaan, I need a new graphic card, processor and more RAM. I miss how nice it looked on Erik's comp... it's all choppy and non-antialiased on mine ;_; Foony comes tomorrooooooow~ I may, or may not, head over to Sarah's and crash there tonight. Hard to say. We shall have to see! There is cheesecake and cookies there.... and an uber computer for me to steal... Hmmmmmmmmm.... mood:  awake
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Indeed it is. The birds are chirping, the sun is rising - clear signs that morning has broken. I've been playing Warcraft all night. No, not World of Warcraft, as much as I would love to. Just plain old Warcraft III, which itself is pretty fun... and the more I play it the more I want to play WoW. I had a snooze this evening so I'm not tired. I slept a lot today actually... easier to avoid thinking about things if you're unconscious, heh. I think I did a pretty poor job of describing what was on my mind to Foon today... I dunno if I really am at a crossroads or not... It's more like being dropped into a forest and not knowing which way to walk in order to get out. Wow if that wasn't obscure, I don't know what is, so I'mma gonna elaborate. Lately, I've been developing feelings for someone. However, I'm not too sure of what to think of these feelings, how to interpret them, or if they're really even there to begin with. The fact that I am still slightly attached to my ex (as is evident when she comes online and I have thoughts about us hooking back up, even if I realize it'll never happen nor do I want it to happen) makes me doubt most of feelings of affection for others. I'm afraid that a part of me may just be trying to latch on to something or someone to try and get over her. Granted, people say "Pssh, that's crazy talk. You're definitely not doing that." and a large part of me wants to agree. Still, that fear is there, as I latched on to someone in the past that inevitably didn't work out because it was a rebound relationship... and those aren't good. They're not healthy for the person rebounding, and they're not fair for the other person, since in reality the other person's being used. So, that covers the not sure they're really there part... Now as for the what to think of them... I think this is the crossroads part... It's at a point where it's like... well, I care for this person, but in what way do I care for them? Like family? Like a close friend? Or more than that? I think caring for them like a close friend would be the healthiest and safest, and it's prolly what they want. I dunno these things! If I did, there'd be no dilemma! Now, if I could just go "Yep I care for x person in y way, and that's that." there wouldn't be the whole worrying if this is a rebound type thing. In other words, I think the feelings are going beyond that... But at the same time, I'm keeping em in check, or at least trying to. You know, it's a bitch to keep things like that in check when people say things to you that those you once loved said in an affectionate way. That sounds like I'm brushing the current statements off as being inaffectionate (unaffectionate?)... and they may just well be the opposite. I have no idea, I can only guess from what I've been told about current feelings of people, etc. Heh I feel like I'm just another hapless sap here that's going down the same path as a lot of others. But you know, there is no "happy ending" I'm looking for. It's not like I'm looking to find a romantic relationship, even if I am a hopeless romantic (which is prolly why I'm reading into things and dwelling on this way too much). I think the fact I don't have a destination is a bit of a curveball for me... In the past I've always had some sorta goal, but this time... I dunno. The relationship I have with this person, right now, is special. It's a lot different from any relationship I've had in the past, and I really don't know how to describe it. It's a bit of everything, I guess. What I do know is that I love this person very dearly and that I want them to be happy. I'm content with sitting in the passenger's seat and going along for the ride, whereever it may lead. Okay, so there, I just came out and said what's been on my mind. Will this make me think about it less? Hell no =P Actually, it's prolly gonna make me worry cause now my thoughts are out in the open and I'm gonna get weird stares. Ahh well, it's best to be honest with ourselves and others no? And besides, I kept enough things obscure that I still have a few shadows to hide within. Back to Warcraft I go. mood:  restless
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First, a possitive note - Rise seems to be a good name for songs. Rise by Origa / Yoko Kanno is one of the best anime openings ever. And Rise by Safri Duo is an amazing trance song. Seriously. Both are must-listens. *nods* The latter definitely is a feel good song. It's got aspects of jungle, progressive, and melodic, along with the Duo's own style. If I was DJing I'd toss this song in at the climax of the set. I think I'll post it in one of the music communities soon. ------------------ In other, more neutral news, I'mma reformatting today. Woot(?) I'm downloading all the installation programs I'mma gonna need so I can just install em as soon as I can.... I can't seem to get the Windows XP service pack 2 DL though... *mutters* And that's the one I'd like the most, as without it I'mma gonna get innundated with spyware and shit, even with all the extra spyware killer programs. Ahh well, I managed before, I'll manage again. Why reformat? Cause I can't get my bloody computer to recognize itself on the home network, let alone recognize Lita's computer. No clue why... the services we're running are the same, so it's not like I closed off essential services... So, I dunno.. reformatting should do it some good. It's about time anyways. I always reformat once every 3 months or so. I gotsta back stuff up first... so much stuff to back up... @_@ This song kicks so much ass. Five days till Foony arrives, yay! mood: devious
music: Safri Duo - Rise
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Man, my pinky is going whacko... First the nail was looking all gimped and everyone I showed it to was like "Damn, did you hit it?" Seriously, everyone's first reaction was that. No I did not hit it, it's been like that for MONTHS. Now it's gone all inflamed below the nail as if I was biten by something or got a bruise. But neither happened and again it's been doing this for a prolonged time. It also hurts when I poke it, much like a bruise does. So... of course I should go see a doctor but a) I don't have one, and b) I don't have a medical plan, and c) I don't like doctors, and really don't care about my health all that much. I took some medical tape and wrapped it around the stupid thing and maybe sufficating it will make it go down or something. Perhaps this is the start of cancer or a disease or something. Some sort of reminder to let me know that yes I'm actually human and very mortal and that death is inevitable. Thinking that, at first, made the self-preserving side of me almost want to panic, but then the larger, more morose, part of me was content with the idea that I can, indeed, get such inflictions and die. Yes, some people may feel out of place on this earth, but I'm sure I feel even more so than they do. Not like it's a competition or I'm trying to get one up on such people. Just a reminder that no matter how out of place you may feel, there are those who feel even more so. Some of us look forward to dying. (And not in an angsty, life sucks because no one loves me, sort of way) mood: thoughtful
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Yes, I do indeed love Subway veggie subs. So very, very good. I like their meat subs too, but those are more pricey and veggie ones are still the best.
Soooo, no job yet. Boo. Today and yesterday weren't spent job hunting though. Boo. Hung out with peoples. Yay. I need to put my foot down and say "No peoples, I need to find work, and then I can hang out!"
Called my mom yesterday... err two days ago now, but she wasn't home so told my bro to tell her to check her email... hopefully she gets the message. I'mma gonna call again before she comes out on the 12th just to make sure.
Peoples mentioned a wearhouse in Esquimalt that may be hiring... and the #6 bus goes right down there. I'mma gonna hafta go look into that. I wouldn't mind warehouse work - don't hafta deal with stupid customers all day, apparently get paid more than the retail peoples who do hafta deal with stupid customers all day, get in shape while I work, prolly could get a night shift... etc.
If all else fails I acn go pick flowers for a month or so! My cousin made $45 for 8 hours work... which sucks ass, but it's better than nothing. And I could prolly go faster than her. Though I may fuck up my back... I have their number, if I don't get any leads by Monday they're getting another worker, rawr!
Apparently, Niki came by the arcade today while we were there. I didn't see her or I woulda said hi. I was prolly playing DDR or Tekken or something. Didn't find out till after we left. Ahh well, good to know she's doing okay.
Will, Sarah, and Sara came and hung out today. We didn't do much. But I dun need to do much to be amused. I'm just always worried others are bored. But ya know, let them speak up and say they're bored, if that's the case! Arrr!
Hopefully, Tiger gets to come out here before the month is over. Wish I could help her get here somehow, but I'm sure she can manage on her own =D I mean, I was able to walk downtown by myself at night, so travelling across the country should be a breeze for her!
Hmm so what else... not much... just chattin to my number one feline homie and Will's over here watching Micah play Advance Wars on the gameboy player for the gamecube.
Guess that's it, so ciaaaaaooo.
Sorry I dun respond to peoples posts much... not really using the intarweb much as my compy isn't here and I need woooooork... so I can play WoW XD
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I'mma jumping on the bandwagon and mentioning, omg the pope.. he iz teh dead!!!111! FINALLY. Whoops was me saying good riddance to the Pope offensive? Bah. First of all, he's Catholic, I am not, and as we all know, my religion (or lackthereof) is the only cool religion out there. Second of all, he was fucking OLD. Do all the morons praying for him not realize that? WHEN YOU GET OLD, YOU DIE. IT'S CALLED AGING. And what the fuck is with all the praying anyways? This people didn't give a second thought about him until he was on his deathbed. You guys are obviously really devoted. Oh and to those praying that he lived, are you completely stupid? He's the FUCKING POPE. You know, the "closest to God" and all that shit. If God wants his Pope to die, then the Pope is gonna damn well die. Praying from the ignorant masses is not going to change that. Tards. And pray tell (haha I made a pun), what exactly had the Pope done lately anyways? He hasn't done he "Popely duties" in who knows how long due to illness and old age. Why didn't he let someone else take over? Perhaps someone who wasn't in the final stages of dying. Yeah, this whole thing is stupid. No one gave a shit about him save for Roman Catholics till now, and now it's everywhere. And it seems sympathizers are coming out of the woodwork. Yeah, well guess what? Other old people died today too! Old people, many born into poverty, who raised families, had jobs, and tried to make a difference in the world. Go fucking mourn them. This flame was brought to you by the letter D and a cheese bagel with cream cheese on it. Mmmmm cream cheese. Oh and also by certain people who feel the same way but don't want to end up pissing off half their friends =P mood: amused
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LMAO Ann Coulter, this reaaalllly far rightwing (she's basically bed buddies with Rush Limbaugh) opinionated moron, whom I dispise, got PWNED by a Canadian reporter. XD He was asking her about her comment she made on Fox News about mentioning Canada is lucky that the US doesn't just crush us with one of their legs, and she went off about how Canada helped in the Vietnam War so why not the Iraq one? And he was like "Actually, Canada didn't send troops to Vietnam." so she said "That's gotta be wrong... What about Indo-china?" and he was like "Nope." I believe we sent some to Korea though, but she never mentioned that one, hehe dumb bitch. Yeah, it's good when her complete lack of intelligence is displayed on TV like that, and she's the "best" Fox has. I hope the Fox Network dies a horrible, horrible death. That would be so sweet. I'm lost in my own little world, lalala. In other news, watched the ending of Air.... wow what a let down ending... I knew it was not gonna be a super-happy ending, but man, that was just a downer followed by confusion. Ahh well. mood:  pleased
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